I have a question about feeling “neutral.” Prior to the Abundance boot camp, my general state of being was depression and negativity. Since the boot camp, my feelings have risen to neutrality. I don’t feel bad, but I don’t feel joy or elation either; I feel in between, in a state of neutrality where I’m not feeling any strong emotion, just being. The only time I feel happy is when I’m with my beloved daughter. I suppose this state of just “being” is a step up from depression, but I’m wondering why my feelings are so inhibited at this point in time.
With much love,
You might perceive that a state of elation or exhilaration is preferable to your current state of neutrality. However, at this point in time, the feelings of elation would be overwhelming for you. Neutrality is an excellent state of being, for neutrality is based in love. It is your natural state. In being neutral you have detached yourself from the stir of emotion based on what you perceive as right or wrong. You are neutral. You no longer react to conditions outside of you, based on judgment. You are able to see things from a higher perspective and this is very good.
You truly want to be neutral. In neutrality, you are existing in a positive emotional state (even though you might perceive it as life on the emotional horizon line). As long as you are not in a lower emotional state of being, you are receptive to inspiration. That inspiration will come when you are ready and not before.
You would not want intense inspiration to come right now, for the fear would be too great and you would not act on that inspiration. You want to ease into the life you are being led to live. You want to gain your footing and balance. You want to be prepared to deal with the fear that will pop up once you receive inspiration.
The timing is always right. For most people who have existed in a state of depression, neutrality would seem foreign to them. It would be too much to handle. You are ready for neutrality and so this is where you find yourself and this is a wonderful stride in the right direction. You must remember that prior to the bootcamp, you were engaged in the practice of intensifying your limiting beliefs. You are now processing those beliefs and realizing that you are so much more than you ever previously thought. You are becoming more balanced and you are eager for more.
The shift from depression to neutrality is a major leap forward, yet there are still some issues regarding your understanding of your own worthiness to lead and teach. This will come as you continue to do your work. Be easy about it. There is no rush. There are no time constraints. You have all the time you need. You can’t see where your life is going, but have faith that you are on the right track. Everything will unfold perfectly at the right time.
There is nothing you need to do other than continue your daily spiritual practice of meditation, acknowledging the appreciation you have for your daughter, your husband, your current home, your town, your country, and your Joshua friends. Interact with all of those things from a stance of love and appreciation and your next step will be given to you the moment you become ready and not a second before. Enjoy feeling neutral for a while. Acknowledge the progress you have made and congratulate yourself for this marvelous achievement!
With our love,
We are Joshua