Dear Joshua,
I find myself alone more and more. My sons are not close, my husband is gone basically from 6:15 a.m. to 7:45 p.m. each day, and now he is traveling more. I don't think I like this time alone. I know in the past (many years ago) I had asked for time alone (as I felt overwhelmed by everyone). Now I am alone the majority of the time.
I have not received any inspiration that I'm aware of to reach out to anyone or go anywhere. If I do, I try to push past any fears and honor it. Honestly, there aren't many people in my life right now that I enjoy being with.
I am ok with myself and it gives me time to explore, yet why are the ones I love the most not with me very much? I understand I can never lose them and they all have their own paths. Am I to look at this time a different way? A time for me to truly discover me? I've realized as a limitless being of pure positive love and acceptance, my passion is loving ~ who am I to love? Am I to love from afar? Love my dog? I would appreciate your perspective on this as I am unable to get "high enough" to see it!
With Love and Gratitude
~ Wendy
Dear Wendy,
You have discovered that you are a limitless being of pure positive love and acceptance and that you feel bliss when you can love others. Love is your passion. You want to express your love to those who are within physical proximity to you, yet you find yourself alone. How odd.
Imagine being one who adores solitude. Imagine being one who loves being alone with her thoughts, but this person finds herself completely surrounded by people without a moment to herself. Then this woman suddenly finds herself alone, just as she had desired for so long. Now that she receives what she has asked for, it feels a bit strange. Maybe she didn't want to be alone after all or maybe she just needs a little time to adjust to these new conditions, or maybe she hasn't found a way to be happy within the conditions.
You find yourself in certain conditions and as you look around, you tend to notice what you do not like and you think that aspect of the conditions is wrong. You think, "If I could change this aspect of my conditions, I would be happy. If only this or that or that could happen, then I would be happy." However, this and that and the other have happened and now you find yourself in the conditions that you have and still you are not happy. Do you see what you are doing here? You are looking at the outside and still thinking that it has the power to make you happy or unhappy. You have created these conditions, consciously or not, because they reflect how you have been feeling for a long time and they are a perfect match to the vibration you have been emitting and so you look at your surroundings and wish they were different. It just does not work that way.
There is only one approach to life that yields the greatest results; you must feel for what you want and then allow the conditions to transform themselves over time. If you do not like some aspect of your wonderful life, you must not hate that aspect. You must love that aspect and then move towards more love. You cannot push anything away.
You look at your life now and call it lonely. This is taking a limited perspective. You are not lonely. You are never alone. You can pick up the phone and call a number of people. It's just by contrast to another time that it seems as if there are fewer people in your proximity and so you notice this and call it bad and use it as your excuse not to feel good.
We know that you are able to find a higher perspective and you are doing that, but we are making a point. You have what you asked for and this is good. Don't dislike what you have, instead ask for something more and it will be given to you.
Imagine two children each asking for a toy. One receives a doll and doesn't like it and complains that it is the wrong toy. The other receives a doll and instead of complaining, simply asks for another toy. The universe isn't finite, it's infinite. You can ask for anything you want. Why not just ask for what you want rather than noticing that what you have is bad or wrong. There's no limit to the amount of things you can ask for and receive. So we say - stop complaining and start asking.
With our infinite love for you.
We are Joshua
