Dear Joshua,
I have been feeling much better ~ I am able to keep my head above the line most of the time! I've been listening a lot to Abraham and I'd like to get your take on a few thoughts.
realize now that I have probably missed so many opportunities because I was just not a vibrational match at the time. I understand now I need to relax and let the process take place while looking for opportunities as they present themselves. I realize I am to reach for the best feeling thoughts and stay open and allow. I have been doing my best to not judge and let go of control and I am much more aware now.
I have been working on giving myself permission to just be. When I think about this, my hang ups are superficial, yet they feel huge. Currently, I am not actively participating in real estate, yet I have a monthly fee of $129 I must pay to my broker and a franchise fee of $400 that has been due for several months and I just can bring myself to pay it. Silly, because I know I am always taken care of, yet I hate the thought of "wasting money." There's a limiting belief ~ "you should not waste money!!"
As of yet I don't know which direction I would like to head in. There were things I have pursued in the past, such as Interior Design. I worked this field for 25 years, had my own business, designed model homes, and loved it! When the housing crash occurred, the clients I worked for went belly up. Unfortunately, I did not keep a portfolio. I thought I would always be working right along and there was no need for that as all my business was referral. A couple of years ago I tried to get a job with a design firm, but I did not have anything of substance to show for my work. While doing that, I also flipped houses and loved that too!! The housing crash and a couple of bad investments shut that down. Real Estate was almost an afterthought to dovetail with those two businesses.
With all that happened in 2009/2010, I lost my confidence, my health went to hell in a hand basket, and I find myself stumbling around looking for a new direction. A new direction because I can't even begin to figure out how to get back to where I was. Maybe I am not supposed to go back ~ just forward.
I would love to wake up in the morning with a sense of excitement for what I will be doing that day. I have to say, the feelings of dread are few and far between, so that is a step in the right direction. Honestly, I feel like I retired before my time ~ before I wanted to ~ that's for sure!
Abraham talks about energy alignment ~ getting myself aligned with what it is I am wanting. Right now, all I know that I want is to be excited about life again. Please share your thoughts and ideas on this.
With Love and Gratitude
~ Wendy
Dear Wendy,
In the past, you found something you loved to do and that was exciting. You didn't just stumble across it. It was not an accident. It was something that came to fruition because you reached vibrational alignment with it. You allowed yourself to do it. You pushed past any irrational fear and you gave yourself permission to pursue it and feel good about it. If you did it once before, you can do it again. However, there is more fear this time.
You believe you did something wrong. You might believe you failed in some way. The negative emotion as a result of all that happened is intense simply because you are attached to the idea that it was all bad and wrong and should never have happened. You look back and think about the things you might have done differently and you feel regret and resentment. However, looking back is an illusion because you think it was the choices you made that led you to where you are now. It was not, it was your vibration.
When things were going good, you and others felt good. You felt confident. You felt less fear. When things started going badly you simply felt less confident and more fear and so events had to unfold as they did. Had you felt confident and fearless, things would have worked out differently. But that's not what you felt and so everything had to manifest as it did. Thank God for that. You want to live in a system where things manifest according to your feelings because this means you have the ability to create the life you desire on purpose due to the fact that you have the ability to control your feelings. This is what this interaction is all about. We are going to work with you so that you create your feelings on purpose. Right now, your feelings come as a reaction to what you observe in the physical world. Like most people, when you observe something you perceive as good, you feel good and your world wraps itself around that feeling. Conversely, when you observe something and you judge it as bad or wrong, your feelings come as a reaction to that and your world wraps itself around that negative reaction.
You will find something you want to do at all ages of your life as long as you release your fear of failure. Your concept of failure is based on a false premise. You believe that action should result in something that can be verified as good based on your limited perspective. That's not the way the universe works. The universe is responding to your desire, which is a mix of what is wanted and what is feared. When you feel good, wanted things have an easier time manifesting. When you feel bad, fearful things might seem to pop into your experience. It's not really what is happening. It is just that when you feel good, you are allowing and when you feel bad, you are resisting. Manifestation events are alerting you to the fact that you are focused on the negative because you are resisting. You are temporarily perceiving life from a limited perspective. Raise your perspective and feel better and you will be back on track and start allowing all that you want to come to you once again.
So for you, the only thing you can do now is start to demand to feel good. Start looking at everything from a perspective that allows you to feel good. What you want has already been asked for. There's nothing you need to do to get it. All you can do is work on feeling good and the things you want will flow into your existence. When you look at money obligations and use that as your excuse to feel bad, you are simply attached to your lower perspective. Take another look at whatever it is from the higher perspective and make decisions that help you feel good.
We will let you in on a little secret. It is not possible to waste money because money is energy and when energy is allowed to flow, it cannot be wasted. Look at these bills from a higher perspective and make a decision. Either way, it will be the right decision. If you pay the bill, then that is a very good thing. If you don't pay the bill, then that is a very good thing. Make the decision not because it's right, but because it will make you feel better.
Always think about how you feel and do things that align with feeling good. You can adjust your perspective as needed to make yourself feel good. You can tell yourself things that make you feel better. All this is about is finding the decision that has the best chances of making you feel better and then reminding yourself you did the right thing after the decision has been made and the action has been taken.
There is no such thing as failure. It is just expansion and your primary purpose for living in physical reality is to expand. You expand through what feels like contrast (failure) and you expand through what feels like success. It does not matter. Success often holds you trapped while failure can create tremendous growth. That's the fact of the matter. You just don't know, so don't worry about it. Just feel good.
With our love,
We are Joshua
