Kyla Question #71

 

Joshua,

I'm in the middle of a manifestation event with my mom. It started yesterday. She's on a road trip with my sister, and they texted me out of the blue asking if I would be home because they'd were heading in my direction and wanted to stop by.

I felt fear because I was not at home...I'm spending the weekend with a gentleman friend. I thought it was perfect timing because they'd be busy with their road trip, and wouldn't have the time/desire to check in with me. So when I saw her text, I panicked and lied, saying I was at work and then going to hang out with a friend.

It was a device I decided to use to get past my fear, and it worked temporarily. I felt relief until she texted and asked about the next day (today). So I lied again and said I had to work today too. A little less relief this time, a little more guilt. And that guilt was bounced right back to me when she said, "Oh okay, well we can just bring you lunch at work then."

When I saw that I felt even more guilt (i.e. more fear), and sent a vague response saying that I'd let her know what my schedule was like. I worried about it all evening, and finally before I fell asleep I decided that I would just come clean in the morning.

I woke up this morning feeling less bold, but pushed through the fear and called her. It went to voicemail, which felt like an answer to my prayer for this conversation to be easy, so I left her a message letting her know that I'd lied about being at work, and that I was actually spending the weekend with a gentleman. I apologized for being dishonest and explained that I was embarrassed about telling her I was with a guy.

When I hung up, I felt proud of myself and even a little bit giddy about getting over my fear of what my mom/sister would think of me. That lasted until I got a text back from my mom saying she would call me when she was alone and telling me to "Be wise."

Admittedly, that was a pretty awesome response from her considering the circumstances, but now I'm feeling some fear (although less than before) about how that conversation will go.

I feel like I've been fairly successful at handling this manifestation event so far, but I would like to get to a place where I'm wobble-free. Where even if she were to yell at me and call me a little hussy (which she would never do), I would be able to handle it without feeling any negative emotion.

So how do I get there? To start, I'm telling myself truths like these:

-- There is no wrong anywhere in the universe, therefore I am not doing anything wrong.
-- I create my own reality, so just like I created this wonderful weekend with my gentleman friend, I also created this situation with my mom.
-- I am an adult. I get to make my own choices. It does not matter what anyone else thinks of my choices.
-- I am acting when inspired, and every choice I make when inspired is for my highest good and is leading me closer to my true desires.

So all of that helps, but I still have some fear around the imaginary conversation that takes place in the future, the outcome of which I couldn't possibly predict. And that fear is taking me out of the moment, out of the incredible time I'm having with this incredible man.

Can you please help me lose the wobble?

With love and gratitude,
Kyla


Dear Kyla,

Yes, you are in the middle of a manifestation event. The event occurred for you due to how you were feeling about being with your gentleman friend. You were a bit wobbly in that regard. Your mother texted you and you felt fear which caused you to drop into a lower emotional state of being. The inspiration to act was done from a place of fear (lower emotional state of being) and we will change the word from inspired action to urge. Let's say that when you are feeling good in a high emotional state of being, you receive inspiration to act and action taken in this state will result in a beneficial result. It will move you toward where you want to go. However, when you are in a low emotional state of being, you will receive an urge to do something that will help you feel better.

Urges are quite different compared to inspiration. Urges come from feeling bad and are there to get you out of that bad feeling state. Urges are like reflexes. Imagine your hand touches a hot stove. Before you have time to think, a reflex action pulls your hand away. It is designed to get you out of a bad-feeling place. However, the reflex does nothing to move you forward and depending on where you're standing and who's beside you, it could lead to something unwanted. You might elbow the person standing behind you.

You were a bit wobbly about being with your gentleman friend and when your mother texted you, you dipped into a low-emotional state of being caused by irrational fear. You received and urge to do something to get you out of this bad-feeling place and so you lied. However, since this was an urge and not inspired action, it did not lead you further along in your path (or so it would seem). You got caught in a lie, which could be embarrassing depending on the strength of your false persona. Now, we can go a little further here and say that the lie brought you into another manifestation event which allows you the chance to iron out your wobble.

Let's imagine that you were in a high emotional state of being, you were not attached to your persona, and then you received the text from your mom. Being a fearless being of pure positive love you received inspiration to act and you simply texted back "Sorry, can't see you. I'm with a guy. I'll call you later and tell you all about it."

This action would bring you everything you want. You stand for who you are. You see your actions as right. You offer honest communication with your mother. And you are not attached to her judgment of you, or her opinions. You get everything you want in the most aligned way possible. Your actions are aligned with who you really are and what you really want.

But fear got in the way and messed everything up. When you feel fear, realize the fear is false, recognize the limiting beliefs the fear creates, do not succumb to urges even though they feel powerful, and do what aligns with who you really are. The most important thing is to check your emotional state of being before acting. That's how you will know if it's an urge or inspiration.

Joshua

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