Joshua,
I can see the truth in your answer. I recognize that I have had a general distrust in men. I feel, though, like some progress is being made on that front, especially when I consider recent interactions with the men I've been choosing to allow into my life. I've been more vulnerable, more myself than ever before, and it has felt great.
So...you brought up the exact words in the elevator. If I had been at a different vibration, without the wobble, where I trusted men, would I have told him I was there with my lover? Would I have known beyond a shadow of a doubt that this man would do as he said, and return my charger? Or would I have simply not cared at all whether he kept his word, and did as he said he would?
I was going to ask, "If I have this fear of allowing men to get too close, then why are things proceeding so well with the men in my life?" But before I even started typing the uestion, I realized that I haven't allowed either one to truly bring me to orgasm. It's always been something I have to be in control of. Part of me is okay with the status quo, because I enjoy that feeling of control, but part of me is aware that there's an aspect of the physical connection that I'm missing out on by refusing to become vulnerable in that way.
So if I want to overcome that, and overcome this general distrust in men, do I look for evidence that men are trustworthy? Or do I look for evidence that it doesn't matter whether I trust them?
Another interesting layer of the onion. I'm grateful that this manifestation event took place, and I'm grateful for the chance to explore it with you. Thanks as always for your insight.
With love,
Kyla
Dear Kyla,
Certainly you have made great progress. You have only to look at how you are approaching life to see that significant change has been made. We are simply pointing out how a wobble in your vibration, caused by some small fear, creates the reality you experience. Had you been without the wobble, meaning had you felt confident, secure, and strong, this manifestation event would not have been necessary. But it was needed to point out some small limiting belief. That's just how the system works.
You were having fun, you were feeling attractive, you caught the attention of a man, and then you felt the wobble. That's all. Had you felt no wobble you might have answered the elevator question to whether you were married or had a boyfriend with a simple "Yes" or with nothing at all. You felt you needed to explain yourself to this total stranger to justify your reason for being there. You did not. You have the right to be there. You can do anything you want. You don't need to justify anything to anyone. This is your universe. You get to decided what works for you.
You do not need men to be trustworthy. You don't need to trust men. You only need to trust your guidance system. You can operate fully in any capacity knowing that it's all going to work out so trust is not a requirement. If they can't be trusted, then that's for your benefit. You will learn something. If they can be trusted, that's for your benefit too. It matters not what happens, it matters only what you perceive to be happening in the moment. Trust is only needed if you believe that you can be taken advantage of. If you do not have that fear (because it is not in your vibration and therefore not possible for you) then you could not be taken advantage of. Just like you said "I know I can afford it, and maybe I'll even meet someone amazing at Best Buy."
Joshua
