Joshua,
Thank you for your insight. As I read and reflected on it this morning, I was initially stuck in limited perspective mode, stuck in blame and seeing all the ways that guy was wrong. But, within a span of thirty minutes, I was able to move on and identify some potential limiting beliefs.
The first one that arose was "It's dangerous to be noticed." Another version of this is "It's safest to stay in the background." These thoughts called forth the memory of a past life regression experience I had where I was a young girl on the run after murdering an abuser. I eventually gave up on life and died alone in a forest because I couldn't bear the fear I felt that someone might recognize me in town.
Is that past life experience related to this current experience? As in, is that where those beliefs originate? Do the origins of beliefs matter?
I set about finding evidence that those beliefs are untrue. I recalled a time where I was watching my favorite band play, and at one point during the show they called me by name to come the front, dedicated my favorite song to me, and then afterwards the drummer gave me his drumsticks. It was a pretty awesome moment, one where I was proud to be the center of attention. That was a time where I felt safe and loved being in the foreground.
Those limiting beliefs were fairly easily reduced in intensity. The one where I'm getting stuck, the one I feel is really at the center of this manifestation event is this... "I am unworthy of attention."
I see how this belief was reinforced in my childhood by the way I perceived my relationship with my father. And I see how it's played out throughout my life. I even see how it caused me to judge the guy last night who gave me the attention I was seeking. If I am unworthy of attention, and someone gives me attention, then they must be wrong for doing so.
At this point, I am able to understand cognitively how this is false. I see how that man was honestly complimenting me the best way he knew how. What I would love some help with is finding evidence that the belief is false. I am shocked at how much of a struggle it seems to be to come up with evidence that I am worthy of attention. I'm drawing a blank. Which is crazy to me.
It's like the answers I seek are just on the other side of a door in my head (or my heart?), but for some reason I've forgotten how to open a door. What's going on here? Does this seem harder because the belief is more deeply held? What's the best way to navigate around this and bust through that door?
With love,
Kyla
Dear Kyla,
Past lives are in the past and have no ability to create in your present life unless you think they do. Your past life recall experience does have the ability to influence you in this life if you let it. You do not have to let it invade this life experience. Each life experience stands on its own. The experience of a past life may (or may not) play a part in the intentions you set before your next life. However, once you are here you have free will. You will encounter contrast in this life experience and that will give birth to new desires. This is the purpose of this life.
You never live a life to correct the conditions of a past life. From your nonphysical perspective, you can see that all life experience is beneficial and therefore good. You come for the experience of life itself and in the nonphysical you do not judge one life as good and another as bad for in reality, it is all good.
However, from your current perspective in this life, the story of a previous life seems tragic. This is not the case. The previous life was far different than what you imagine. You only have a glimpse of a life told in a few small words. You can't even begin to imagine the detailed tapestry of any past life. All you might get is a taste of one significant moment. But it is always taken out of context. Your perspective in this life has a lot to do with how you perceive a past life (or anything else for that matter). So forget about the past, either in a past life or in this life. The past is over. Be in the present and look toward the future with curious anticipation. You create your own reality in this life.
Joshua
