Dear Joshua
People talk about loving sports because of the endorphins they get when they work out. I don't get the impression I get that (I think I might have had it once when I ran a bit of distance ) - Is it a question of quantity, or am I expecting more than what most people talk about because I've gone the drugs and alcohol path in the past and therefore my expectations are higher?
Kate
Dear Kate,
You are completely unique in all the world. This is true of every living thing. What you feel is based on your unique perception of reality. No one else can see what you see, think what you think or feel what you feel. The sight, sound, taste, feel and smell of everything is unique to you. You can't really describe anything in words to convey what you sense because it is all unique to you.
When someone says they feel a rush or a high, what they are feeling is unique to them based on their unique perception of their unique reality. Who knows what they're really feeling? It's not possible to know. This is a design of physical reality. If everyone had the same experience, no one would want to come back for more. So then, it stands to reason that the system was designed to make every experience unique.
You came here with a set of intentions to explore reality in a certain way. You chose the time and place of your birth, and you chose your parents. This set you on a trajectory so that you could be launched toward that which you intended to explore. Part of that trajectory is your body. It is unique as well. Every cell is unique and together you create a system that is designed to help you along your path to explore reality as you intended.
Imagine if it was someone's intention to be physically fit or an athlete during this life for whatever reason. There are a great many reasons for this with few having to do with sports as it were. However, if this was the intention, then might a body that thrived under duress help the person move toward that which they intended? Do you see how the system works?
To some people, drugs and alcohol feel good while to others they feel terrible. Have you ever contemplated that? There is a reason for everything if you stop and consider it.
While you personally appreciate looking attractive and it is part of who you are, you believe that you must exercise to keep looking attractive, but you don't get the rush that others do. This is because the level of fitness necessary for you to explore reality as you intended is not as much a part of your experience as it is for an athlete or for someone who's intentions depend on it.
You can see how this plays out for people who have a false desire to be good at some sport. For the intended athlete, everything is easy and fun. For the person who wants to feel worthy or make money through sports, everything is a struggle.
Joshua
