Dear Joshua
I would like to enjoy my work situation more – to be able to get to a feeling of more ease. Last week, especially Friday, I felt so overwhelmed with little things here and there and something crossed my mind. It's the process that Abraham suggests; "Ask the Universal Manager." Make a list with what I agree to do, and turn the rest over. And I noticed how I don't really trust the universal manager.
So I have two basic questions; one - how to work on increasing my faith in Universal manager? Today I'm gently repeating to myself: Turn it over, turn it over, turn it over. Two: what can I do to appreciate work more? Gratitude lists? I know we have been here before but I'm a knucklehead. Feeling overwhelmed could be seen as being busy (which is not a bad thing). I'm crossing things off my to do list, but I don't even like having to do lists. It's like there is too much to remember to do. On the other hand, the to do list is mainly because I leave for vacation in a week (which is a good thing) and while I'm away, my living room is being redecorated (which is a good thing). So its all for the good and my pleasure, but coming up to it feels like a mad race.
Part of me doesn't want to come back. I know – sort of running away from my daily life, but also seeing it as leaning in to taking risk (foolhardy and not the way I want it to go – I want it to happen with ease and flow and the universe organizing it, not me controlling it). Maybe I want some adventure – maybe I want a change – maybe I just want more ease and joy, ease and joy, on a daily basis – more ease and joy.
I Know that it is all my thinking and I'm having a bit of trouble getting hold of and changing the direction of that thinking. When I think "ok, I could be thinking of my upcoming holiday, the fun of the travel, the fun of being in a new place, bears maybe, walks, English, air, loved family", I actually have to go reaching for it – in fact, writing to you has been the first time I've started to list the good of the holiday. My main thought is "I just want to get away" or "I have so much to take care of before I leave" (although I have been crossing things off my list which is satisfying).
Wouldn't it be nice to have the habit of ease and flow thoughts? Wouldn't it be nice to systematically go to the good and positives which way overpower the small hassles? Wouldn't it be nice to be happy and grateful and joyous and appreciative all the time (or 90% of the time)? Wouldn't it be nice to feel blessed and go with the flow, knowing it's getting better. Wouldn't it be nice to be a powerful and deliberate positive creator, creating the life of my dreams? And wouldn't it be nice to know what my dream life was?
Wouldn't it be nice to be able to get up and move to a sunny part of the states (I'm not even sure why … because it's sunny and a change and fun and there are nice houses and cars and jobs…right?) with my boyfriend and my mother close by? Wouldn't it be nice to be doing work I love? And wouldn't it be nice to know that what I want (food, lovely home … interesting work …Joy Joy Joy) are all right there (it is) and to have access to those feelings.
I'm holding myself back, aren't I? But it is an inside job.
Look at Kyla – she is moving forward in leaps and bounds….. what is she doing that I'm not? What "play" is she implementing that I'm a bit slower at? I love that she is having these wonderful manifestations, breakthroughs – all for the joy of it. I do appreciate her for that and seeing it happening for her gives me hope for me. I just seem to be more resistant and I'm wondering why am I so afraid. If resistance is fear, what am I so afraid of?
It's all good. It's all progress. It's all coming to understand and going at my own pace. There is a good holiday coming up ("but I'll be away from work so long – the work I'm resistant to right now") ….
With love and appreciation,
Kate
Dear Kate,
You sound a bit conflicted. You say it's all good and then you think of reasons why it's not all good. You are focused on the good and the bad at the same time. This is common in your society, but you are a conscious creator. If you lack the focus to pay more attention to what you want and less consideration to what you perceive as bad or wrong, you will continue to create a life that has a bit of the good and a bit of the bad. This is unconscious, unfocused creation. This is what most people do. This is ineffective. This approach does not engage the powers of the universe. This way of being keeps you feeling like you are stuck.
We would say that the first place to start is with appreciation. It is important to write down and understand what you appreciate. When you focus on the things you have to appreciate, you cause those things to grow. Let's start by writing by hand one hundred things you appreciate. Break them down into four categories. What do you appreciate about your home and where you live? What do you appreciate about your health and your physical body? What do you appreciate about the abundance in your life, including your work? And what do you appreciate about your relationships?
Write, by hand, twenty five things you appreciate in each category. Pay attention to your tone. Think about your vibration and how you are feeling as you write each sentence. Write full and complete sentences. Once you have written them all by hand using a pen and a piece of paper, transcribe them into a computer document and keep them safe. Make sure that you type them out exactly as written by yourself. Do not scan it in, type it out.
Take one full day apart from what you have written and go back and re-read your list. Think again of your tone. Pay attention to your feelings and emotions as you read each one. Then write us and tell us what you have discovered about yourself.
With our love and appreciation for the wonderful work you are doing which will inspire so many people you cannot begin to imagine.
Joshua
