Dear Joshua,
So …. Since our Monday call ~ I have been getting more and more pain = resistance!! There was one sentence that I wrote down and I would like more clarification; "I'm using the pain to not feel good ~ the pain is because of how I feel = my vibration and general idea of life."
I have been doing my best to let go of attachments to any type of outcome, to accept it all and to allow it all. Today I focused on what I like about my life. For the first time I admitted to myself that I like not having a whole lot to do. However, I have a difficult time staying on my path with the pain. Thoughts?
With Love and Gratitude
~ Wendy
Dear Wendy,
You think you like having nothing to do because all the things you think you could or should be doing (like working), are not appealing to you. However, there is a conflict in this because of some very limiting beliefs. You believe that you must be doing something in order to justify your existence and there's nothing you want to do. In fact, when you think of the things you could be doing, you feel some stress because you do not want to do those things. Your mind is caught in a paradox. There's nothing you have to do, yet you feel guilty for not doing something. You cannot relax.
We are going to give you a pass. We will say that the next few months is the most important time in your life. You have lived life in such a way that has created this desire to find some answers. Your life has led you perfectly to this time and place where you have the opportunity to involve yourself in this interaction with us and you have time to focus on what we have to say. Everything about it is perfect.
We want you to do nothing for the next few months. In fact, if you were to do anything, it would slow your progress. Even if something fell on your lap, we would ask you to hold off until we conclude our conversation. So doing nothing is now the thing we want you to do. And we want you to commit to doing nothing for the next few months. Think of it as an intense course where you simply do not have the time available to do anything else. Very good. Let's continue.
Now that you are fully committed to concentrating on this interaction, we will give you something to think about. If you were involved in a passion, you would be fully and completely interested in spending as much time as you could doing that. You would want to do it. You would not want to do nothing. You would have the energy and vitality to do whatever it was. You would not get tired of it. You would be consumed by it. You would receive all that you need as a result of it. You would be living a life of bliss. Due to how you feel right now, it's hard to imagine wanting to do anything that badly.
You don't understand how nice it is to be involved in your passion because it has been a while since you've been passionate about something. We are here to tell you that you can be passionate about something and that you will find it. It's just that your vibration needs to rise a bit before you can see it. This interaction with us will help you raise your vibration. Consistent meditation will help you raise your vibration. Feeling good will help you raise your vibration. Seeing things as right will help you raise your vibration. Once your vibration gets a little higher, you will be led to the passion through one interest after another.
But, if you could do something simple, from home, without too much preparation, what would you do? What different thing would you do? How would you do something differently? We want you to do something today that you want to do. Do something easy and quick without thinking about it and tell us what it was. Do something today and write back to us as soon as you have done it and tell us what happened. We will take it from there.
You are loved more than you can imagine by more than you could ever count.
Joshua
