Dear Joshua,
I pretty much have the opportunity to do just about anything I want to do right now. Why is it that I can't come up with anything that I want to do with any amount of interest? Also ~ I know I am holding onto resistance ~ I can physically feel it, yet I can't seem to shake it off - it is exhausting. I think this is why I don't feel like doing anything because I'm always so tired.
I'm bored, yet I don't know what I want to do. I realize this is an issue most people would love to have ~ but it is driving me crazy! Am I supposed to just hang out and wait?
With Love and Gratitude
~ Wendy
Dear Wendy,
Imagine that you are the captain of a huge ship at sea. You have been traveling west for your entire voyage. Suddenly, you realize that you must turn east to get where you want to go. But there is great momentum and you can't just stop on a dime and turn the ship around. First you must slow the ship and take a wide turn in the other direction. Right now you are starting to realize that you should be heading in the opposite direction. You can't just turn around and this is frustrating to you. There has been lots of momentum. Like the ship, it will take a bit of time for you to move in another direction.
You are at the perfect place to start. It is quite obvious. You have created a life that affords you the freedom to do whatever you want to do. You are right, most people would envy your position. And here you are, with endless possibilities in front of you, but for some reason you cannot figure out what it is you want to do. Why do you think that is?
Let's remember that you have created all of this. You created your life as it exists in this moment. You created your relationships, your environment, your health, your emotional state of being, and your connection to us. What exists now is your creation. You may view it as good or bad, but it is neither. It just is. What will you choose to do with your creation? It is all up to you.
Your recent judgement of your creation has been negative. You think there is something wrong, but there is not. Where you are is perfect. We wouldn't change a thing. This is because where you want to go could not be accomplished if your life was any different than it is now. If you didn't have a life that you so wanted to change, you could not have found your way to us, and ultimately to the life you want to live. You have birthed a very strong and intense desire, but you are resisting it. Resistance stems from fear. Your condition has moved you past your fear so that you have come to talk to us, to be interested in what we have to say, to be willing to open your beliefs, and to acknowledge that you have more creative abilities and are more worthy than you previously thought. You are a worthy and magnificent creator and your creation is you. Unfortunately, you do not appreciate what you have created.
You created it all and you also created your judgment of your creation. Isn't that interesting? You could believe your creation is wonderful, but you do not. This has caused you to search for answers. This has caused you to become interested in the laws of the universe and the mechanism of physical reality. You are interested in these things, but only because you hope that it will lead to the improvement you so desire. Except there is a catch. You can't move to an improved condition by hating your present condition. It defies the laws of the universe.
Before you can turn the ship, you must slow it down. You must relax. You must understand that everything is right. You be easy on yourself. There is no rush. Think of this time as your awakening. It is interesting. It is enjoyable. There is joy here. It can be fun. It should be fun. It should be easy. It is easy. It is not difficult. Everything is moving along perfectly at exactly the right speed. You simply need to embrace this period of adjustment. Then slowly and surely, you will turn the rudder and change your course.
You should not be doing anything right now because there is nothing to do but ask questions, read answers, meditate, read books, ask more questions, and understand more answers. When there is something to do, we will ask you to do it. If you were to attempt to do anything else, during this period of course adjustment, it would not stick. You are in a process of change. Your perception of reality is shifting. Your vibration is raising. There's nothing to do because during this adjustment period, you are moving from where you were headed, to where you want to go.
You want to be told what to do to "fix" your problem, but there is nothing to fix because you have no problem. You are perfect as you are now and as soon as you realize this, everything will begin to improve. Until you see how awesome you are, how much power you possess, how worthy you are, how unique you are, and how valuable you are, you won't be able to change your course. So, your work is to become interested in you. Your job for the next few months is to appreciate who you are now. Accept yourself as you are and you will start to see things change.
Did you know that you are loved more than you could imagine by more than you could ever count? It's true. There are countless entities wishing you well and supporting you every step of the way. They love and appreciate you as you are. They do not need you to change in order to love you. They accept you for who you are now. They see the wonderful life you have created. They know what you are here to do and they are guiding you every step of the way. You look at life and perceive the negative aspects as meaningful. They have a higher perspective and cannot see any negatives, only positives. Choose to look at your life from the higher perspective. Decide that you will focus on the positives. Decide to move the ship from negative to positive. Decide that everything you want exists in the positive and nothing you want can be received when you are squarely focused on the negative.
Do you know that one day you will help millions of people who are going through exactly the same experience you are going through. Do you know that many, many people are suffering in the same way you are? It is common among people in this time of awakening. Can you imagine the benefit your experience will offer others? You came to move consciousness to a new level. Do you realize how important that is? Your contribution will one day be something that will inspire so many other people you could not even imagine it. This is what you have to do. Turn your ship around so that others may turn their ships around as well.
We are Joshua and we appreciate you for who you are now and for your unique contribution to the conversation.
