Dear Joshua,
Today was my first day back to work from a 4 day vacation and I was very busy catching up on work. I had a one on one meeting scheduled with my boss and I sat in his office for 15 minutes waiting for him to show up before I gave up and left. Luckily, I had my laptop with me so I could continue to do work, but ultimately I found myself feeling very frustrated and angry that he didn't even have the common courtesy to text, call or email me that he couldn't make it. I interpreted this as he doesn't value my time and I felt disrespected and ultimately I REALLY wanted to express to him how I felt. I didn't because I knew I wasn't feeling stable, confident, etc. (like I do most of the time these days - thank you!) and that he has obviously pushed an emotional hot button for me so I didn't "vent" to him.
If I had to analyze this - he obviously doesn't see how important I am and how valuable my time is! It's also interesting to me that if someone that I perceived to be my peer or junior to me made me wait 15 minutes for a meeting, I would be much more forgiving and it wouldn't be a big thing. I believe that's because I already feel "valuable" (or worthy) when dealing with people I perceive as peers/junior but I feel "unworthy" when dealing with people I perceive "above" me - interesting! I also don't care as much about peers/junior's being pleased with me, yet as much as I would like to think I don't care - I do want my bosses to be pleased with me. It's obvious to me now that I'm worthy with some people, not worthy with others and that I "categorize" people as either above, equal, or below me. How do I stop doing this?
Your perspective would be greatly appreciated :)
Thanks!
Steve
Dear Steve,
This is simply a manifestation event designed to bring you to a new level of awareness and to bring about the alteration of a limiting belief. Now that you have some space between the event and this point in time, you can look at the situation and analyze it. Let's assume that the universe is in the process of giving you what you have asked for and this event is part of the creation process. As you know, you must be changed into the vibrational version of you that is ready for what you've asked for. There is something about this situation that brings up a limiting belief and that belief is keeping you from becoming the vibrationally-ready version of you that will match your desire. So then, what is the limiting belief?
It is interesting to note that you believe there is a feeling of unworthiness and yet you would not feel this way if a peer or junior made you wait. The vast majority of people in your situation would feel the opposite. They would experience feelings of anger if a junior was late, but they would probably be more forgiving if their boss was late.
So you feel disrespected or undervalued by your boss. Let's dissect this feeling. The feeling of being undervalued is a negative emotion. Since you do not agree with how your inner self is feeling about you, in this exact situation and moment in time, you feel negative emotion. This is your indication that your inner self sees something you are not seeing. This also means that what you are feeling is false. It isn't true. If you feel undervalued by your boss, it is not true. Your inner self knows your value and also knows how valuable your boss knows you are. You feel undervalued by your boss, but he does not feel the same way. He does value you. You don't believe he values you to the degree you want to be valued, but that is your own belief. You are making it up. You don't know exactly how he feels about you and since you cannot know, you simply allow little events like these to reinforce your own feelings. Do you see what's really happening here?
You feel undervalued so the laws of the universe work to show you proof of how you feel. Since you don't have these same feelings with your peers or juniors, these types of situations do not occur with them. They cannot occur. You must feel a certain way first and the universe creates the physical representation of your feelings in what you term "real life." Had you believed that your boss considered you to be a superstar, he could not have missed your meeting. It would not have been physically possible.
This is all occurring to bring you out of this haze of insecurity. For you to receive what you really want, you must start believing and acting like you are valuable. You want what can only come to one who believes himself to be not only worthy, but valuable. You must become the superstar you already are to receive what you really want. Your doubt causes a delay in the manifestations you so desire. Release the doubt and act the part. Become who you are by being valuable and believing in your own value and the value of everyone else, including your boss.
You felt negative emotion in this event and the first thing you wanted to change was your boss. You believed he should be different than he is, but he could not be different because he was simply responding to your vibration. He cannot be different, only you can. Things only happen as a reflection of your vibration. Things cannot be different, only you can. You cannot control things until you take control of your own vibration. The easiest way to control your vibration is to stop reacting to the conditions negatively and start responding to them as if your understand that everything is working perfectly to mold you into the vibrational version of you that is ready for the things you want.
Joshua
