Dear Joshua,
I never thought of sex in the same context as food or comfort. It just seems so much more special to me. (I understand that this is because of all the screwy beliefs that society places around it.) So this leads me to wonder... since sex is such a big deal for me (and I think I like that it's a big deal) did I choose this time period to come here because I wanted sex to be a bigger deal? Because I imagine there must exist a time where sex is just like "going out for dinner" and not the big deal it is today.
Also, I believe I am more sexual in nature than the typical guy. I've wondered if this is because I came here to explore sexuality specifically or if it's possibly an insecurity issue that I have and I'm continually seeking validation through sexuality? I bring up the insecurity issue because in high school I was extremely insecure and I've noticed through the years since that I have found no greater validation of "me" as a worthy, lovable, masculine being than a girl giving herself to me sexually. Now I know on a logical level that I should not be looking externally for this validation and that it should come from within. But through a lifetime of this external validation and now this interaction with you, I'm believing in my own worthiness, so this is a good thing, right? It could also be because I would define myself as a fun seeker and sex is a lot of fun, so maybe that's why I'm extra sexual? To be clear - I'm not trying to judge anything, I wouldn't trade my past for anything. It has brought me to where I am today. I'm just trying to figure out why I am the way I am. Any insight(s) would be appreciated.
Thanks!
Steve
Dear Steve,
Sex seems like a big deal compared to food and comfort because you are not starving out in the cold. If you were, sex would be the last thing on your mind. It's true that at this time in your history, sex is a bigger deal than at other times, but then again, that's true of everything. Everything is more in these times and in the future, everything will be even more.
For you sex is validation and fun and interesting and many other things. Sex is also an insight into alignment and alignment feels good. You are more sexual now, because you are becoming more aligned, rising to a higher vibration, and learning to feel love more. You are becoming more confident as you are coming to understand the mechanism of physical reality and your powers of creation. So for you, this manifests as sexual energy. For others, it might manifest differently.
You chose to come into the world at this time because it is the time of awakening and you knew that all energies would be heightened, especially the energy of freedom which underlies sexual energy. So enjoy sex and enjoy the energy of all things you are passionate about and realize that they are all intertwined. You are the way you are because of your attention to what is wanted and the vibration you emit. You are the way you are because of your beliefs and as you change those beliefs you become another version of you. You are always changing, always evolving and becoming more of who you really are every day. You might feel this way now and in time you might feel differently. If you are attached to feeling the way you feel about any subject, you will remain in that place until you feel differently and then that will be who you are.
You can be however you want to be. As long as you're being who you want to be, and it's true to who you really are, then everything will work out just as you want it to.
You are loved more than you can imagine and you are more worthy than you will ever believe.
Love,
Joshua
