Joshua,
So I wrote you about this man who has these very specific desires that, for the most part, coincide with my desires. I saw him again the other night, and had a pleasurable although somewhat jarring experience.
Because I have fully embraced the idea that there is no wrong anywhere in the universe, I just rolled with it. I understood that I was a match to what happened, but I'm not exactly sure why it happened. Was it just a matter of clarifying what I want (and what I clearly don't want)? Or was there something more to be gained from that experience?
Also, this man happens to have a supposedly incurable nerve disease. He's in constant pain, with no relief in sight, and so I find it very curious that I showed up in his existence just a few months after major brain surgery. He was experiencing severe pain while I was with him, so I sent him a link to the Ask Joshua page, and I encouraged him to ask you a question about it.
Even as I was sending the link, I knew he probably wouldn't send a question. I remembered your words regarding my other gentleman friend, saying that he was a match to me but wasn't necessarily a match to you guys. Is it the same case with this guy? I did what I was inspired to do, so do I serve any other purpose here in regards to his dis-ease?
I'm not sure if I'll keep seeing him or not, but I am still interested in knowing why he has this chronic pain...I don't feel a need to "fix" him per se, but I do think that his issues could easily be solved if the root of them was identified.
I realize that he's on his path, and I'm on mine, and they will intertwine for as long as necessary for us both to get what we need out of it. Have we reached that point or is there more to come? Another interesting point is that his fiancé is pregnant. I attracted the thought that maybe I could practice my doula stuff with her, but I don't know if that will pan out or not.
Either way, I'm not attached to an outcome, which is progress for me. Would love it if you could shine a light on this whole situation, and give me a hint as to what it all means for me and for everyone else involved.
With love,
Kyla
Dear Kyla,
As you are rapidly increasing your vibration due to your new approach to life, you will begin to allow new experiences to flow to you. In the past you may have judged certain experiences to be wrong or inappropriate based on some limiting belief and irrational fears. Now you are realizing that you can be without judgment and open to new ideas and experiences. This is a very good thing, but you might want to go a little slower so that you do not become overwhelmed.
When your vibration raises rapidly, you might feel more confidence. On the one hand, you intellectually know how the system works, but on the other hand, you cannot completely escape your long-held limiting beliefs. You go into a manifestation event feeling good and confident and then something happens that appears to be jarring. Like everything else, this is just a feeling based on your perception of the event.
You are straddling a line between your old approach to life and this new approach. While your head and your heart and fully engaged in the new approach, you have a foot firmly planted in the old approach. You go confidently into new experiences feeling good and then judgment and fear creep in, which feels out of place considering how much progress you have made.
This is a transitional period. You are still interacting with us in this One on One format and there is much more growth to come. This is why we ask you not to make any major life changes while in the program. Before you make a big decision, you need to have made the full and complete change that will come at the end of the One on One.
So take your time, have some more experiences, take it easy, and don't give too much meaning to any one event. These are all manifestation events based on your new vibration. They will feel a little more intense, because you are living life at a higher level. You are becoming more fearless and courageous and things will happen due to your heightened levels of awareness and confidence that seem to be more specific.
Whatever happens, understand that it is for your growth because you have asked for it. Go with the flow as much as possible, but remember it could be a little overwhelming at times. There is no rush, so take it as easy as you like. Allow yourself the freedom to move in and out of relationships, because these are transitional relationships during this transitional period in your life.
Joshua
