Joshua,
So 37 hours has more than passed and I'm still feeling overwhelmed. The boys both got up at 4am (two hours after I went to bed), my dog is peeing blood and the internet tells me it's cancer, and my dishwasher flooded the kitchen, all before noon.
I was doing my best to stay positive, so I packed the kids up and went to a play place before dropping my oldest off for his second day of school. Yesterday he ran inside smiling and blowing me a kiss, but today the teacher literally had to help pry him off of me to get him to go inside.
I'm attempting to find higher perspectives here because I realize I am creating *all* of this.
I was wanting a new dishwasher because the old one is gross, I love my dog to pieces but it could (eventually) be a relief to have one less body to feed and clean up after, and I felt loved when my son wanted to stay with me.
I know everything will work out perfectly even if I can't see now how it will all unfold. I can deal with the lack of sleep, and the dishwasher, and even the dog (and the potential vet bill), but the thing with my son hurts.
He didn't want to go to school. He told me that over and over, but due to my irrational fear of what others would think of me, I made him go. We talked about his fears (being nervous about being new, mostly) and I tried to help him work through them, but in the end I just forced him to go against his inner guidance.
I know there is no wrong, but it felt wrong to do that. But I think it also would've felt wrong to let him stay home, and deal with his dad and the school.
Basically, I'm feeling like a Negative Nancy and I want to get back to my baseline of wellbeing.
I've identified the fear of what others think, regarding the school issue, but what about the rest of it? Is there a common limiting belief in all of these things, or is it simply my "overwhelmed" vibration attracting more things to overwhelm me?
As always, I look forward to receiving your insight.
With love,
Kyla
Dear Kyla,
In this transitional phase, you are in the process of adjusting your vibration to your new environment. You were within the vibrational vicinity of the new environment and that's why you moved. Now you are simply fine-tuning your vibration and there is a little resistance. That's all. You are experiencing a little resistance, your dog is experiencing resistance and so are your children. However, your vibration will quickly align with the new environment and well being will flow once again. The time it takes to work out your vibration will depend on the intensity of your resistance. Knowing that it is simply a transitional phase of vibrational adjustment might be comforting and ease your resistance.
You can allow your children to experience their resistance or you can be resistant towards it. You want your children to feel good, but they must figure it out on their own. You see your son as he encounters fear about going to school. You know that once he acclimates to his surroundings he'll be fine. You realize that he is in the process of aligning his vibration with the vibration of the school and he is experiencing some resistance. You know that he will birth desires as a result of this contrast and that is a good thing. You also know that his fears are irrational. When you help your child move through his irrational fears so that he can take the action that he must take, you are providing a source of strength for him. This is something that he will appreciate you for later in life.
Now take a look at the situation from the perspective that it's just a temporary transitional period where all involved adjust their vibrations to their new surroundings. The duration is based on the intensity of resistance. By allowing whatever must happen to cause you to adjust to your new environment, you help ease the intensity of contrast. Soon you will all adjust and everything will be fine. Take this time to consciously choose your thoughts and then sit back and observe how others who are not yet able to control their perspective experience resistance, yet eventually work it all out. From this perspective, everything becomes something of a game and you can observe how each person plays their game.
Watch how your sons handle this transition. Observe, without interference. You will learn something interesting about each of them if you can maintain your distance without becoming emotionally involved. One will handle the transition better than the other. Why is that?
Joshua
