Joshua,
I would love to hear your perspective on the conversation that took place at the end of the radio show today. Clearly, there was a manifestation event happening for Janine. There was a potential manifestation event for me, although I feel like I avoided it for the most part.
I managed to maintain my feelings of confidence and security in spite of the opinions of others who may disagree with my viewpoints. The part where I'm not quite wobble-free is that I find myself questioning how I fit into a world full of people who see things so differently than I do. Sometimes I feel like an alien. I keep meeting all of these new people, and talking about all these "crazy" ideas, and a lot of them are really receptive, but I feel like a lot of other people in my reality, even the ones who supposedly "get" this stuff, find it really difficult to relate.
How do I exist in a world with beliefs so different from mine without wanting to change the state of things? I overheard a conversation between my parents and their friends tonight, where they were talking about how it's their duty to share the message of the Bible. If I'm being honest, I rolled my eyes a little bit, thinking that I ought to tell them that the best way to share the message is to live it, rather than tell people who don't want to know about it.
So maybe that's my answer to how I fit in? Maybe *I'm* supposed to just live my beliefs, and only share them with people who express an interest in them?
I was just sitting here trying to figure out what exactly I'm feeling. Here's the best way I can think of to explain it:
I feel like I'm out running with a bunch of my friends. We're not in a race, we're all just running for fun. We start out as a pack, and I'm towards the back, then all of a sudden I get this huge burst of energy, and I blow past everyone else. I'm just running, as fast as I can, having a blast and enjoying the thrill of the wind in my face and feeling amazed at my newfound speed, but, at the same time, I'm conscious of all my friends back there. At the same time I'm experiencing this complete joy in what I'm doing, I'm also looking over my shoulder, almost feeling guilty for leaving everyone behind. I really just want them all to catch up so that we can all run together and so they can experience what I'm experiencing the way that I'm experiencing it. However, if I had to guess, I'd say they want me to slow down, probably for reasons that are similar to mine.
I know that I have a unique perspective, and so does everyone else, and so I can't expect others to experience what I'm experiencing the way that I'm experiencing it. I also realize that I am fortunate to have a few friends who are receptive to hearing about all these new ideas I'm exploring (and share their own). But still...the leading edge of the leading edge feels kind of lonely. Connecting with people is one of my strengths (as I see it), and right now I feel like I'm not sure how to do that.
I'm intrigued at how my question about the show today has morphed into this existential crisis. I don't know what brought this out. Maybe the show had more of an effect on me that I thought? Or is the the result of something else?
Can you help me make sense to me?
With love and gratitude,
Kyla
Dear Kyla,
You are an unlimited being of pure positive love and acceptance and so is everyone else. You are on a path toward becoming who you really are and so is everyone else. You are moving at your own unique pace, and so is everyone else. When you return to the nonphysical you will regain your idea of who you really are and so will everyone else as they reemerge into the nonphysical. All you are doing here is playing a game to see what you can discover about yourself under the illusion of physical reality. You are playing this game and so is everyone else.
Your perspective has shifted and so this feels like a surge of energy which has allowed you to run ahead of some of your friends. You feel that you want to bring them with you, but what you really want is to meet new friends who are already at your level (or even beyond). You are a seeker and this is what you came here to explore. Your friends have their own set of intentions and are taking their own paths. They might want you to stay with them because they fear where they think you are going. It causes them fear, and this has nothing to do with you.
You very much want to live in a world where people have differing opinions. You know that the vast majority of people have virtually no understanding of the system of physical reality. They do not understand that their emotions are their guidance systems at work. But you know this and this is not what is bothering you. You believe that those who understand more about the nature of physical reality should be more evolved than they are. Your fear is if those who know more aren't practicing what they know, then what's the purpose of this knowledge. Maybe it's pointless. Maybe there's no benefit to understanding the higher perspective.
You must understand that you are the center of your own universe and your world is simply a reflection of what you are thinking, feeling, and believing. Everything is a manifestation event for you, regardless of the other people involved. They too have the opportunity to grow as a result of a shared manifestation event and it is helpful to see things from their perspective and then try to understand their behavior. But all of this is done for your benefit. It only matters to you. You can empathize with the other person and see how what they are thinking and believing is also right, but this is only to see how you are right and how the higher perspective can answer all of your questions. Ultimately it is all for you; every single bit of it.
Whatever happens to anyone else only happens through the lens of your perspective. You cannot know what is happening for them. We could explain it, but it would make no difference. They are living in their own universe and it is quite a different reality for them. When Janine read your question, her idea of you was not of you at all. It was of a fictionalized character that had no resemblance to you. She was not talking about you, she was talking about the person she fabricated based on the intricacies of her own persona. She had the opportunity to examine some of her own limiting beliefs and maybe she will, but all of it has nothing even remotely to do with you.
No one knows you. Your mother thinks she knows you, but she only knows her version of you. That version is completely different from the version your father knows, your children know, you ex knows and each of your friends know. You are unique to all of them because they see you through the filter of their own perspective. They perceive you based on how they perceive the world around them and everyone has a unique perspective. Therefore you are uniquely different to everyone and therefore no one can know the real you. In fact, you cannot know the real you either because your idea of who you are is filtered through your own unique perception of reality. The idea of you is called your persona.
Your persona is not you, it is the version of you that you believe exists. However, if you were to see yourself from a new perspective, you would instantly create a new persona. The new persona would be just as false as the previous one. There is only one version of you that is accurate and that's the version of you that exists in the nonphysical. You are an unlimited being of pure positive love and acceptance. Anything less is the limited version of who you really are.
The way you believe Janine sees you is how you feel about yourself. You can't know what she thinks of you because you can't know her and she can't know you. Your perception of her opinion is created by how you feel about yourself. If you feel she is right, then you agree with her perception, if you feel she is wrong, then you disagree with her perception. However, it's not her perception, it's yours.
The idea that you created about what you think she perceives, is your own perception. You can't know her perception, all you can know is your own. This is a wonderful thing. You get to examine yourself without doing much damage to your own persona. However, you must realize that anything you believe is wrong, including Janine's perception of you, is your own resistance to an idea which challenges your persona. You want your persona to be challenged because your persona is limited. You want to examine your fears so that you can remove more and more limitations.
We understand that we are getting a little deep here, but it is so much fun. We know that you are receptive to these ideas. We know that you have so many beneficial beliefs and aspects to your persona. One of your beneficial beliefs is that you are okay when someone you trust challenges your persona. You can see that we are obviously teaching you some very beneficial things about yourself. However, when someone else challenges your persona, you believe they are not obviously teaching something of benefit. This is not the case at all.
If your ex was to say something you don't like, you would assume that he was being intentionally hurtful. However, it is exactly the same thing whether we say it or he says it. Your perception that the teaching must come in the form of a loving entity is misguided. Teachers come in all forms. The best teachers bring out negative emotion. Your parents are teachers, your children are teachers, Janine is a teacher and your ex is a wonderful teacher. It is all the same information being taught in many different ways.
So next time someone says something you don't like, don't make them wrong, don't attempt to change them, don't blow them off, don't have pity for them, just understand that it is a loving message even if it was given in a way that appears to be something less than loving. It is always, always loving because it is the message you need to receive in order to uncover another layer of limitation.
You are an unlimited being of pure positive love and acceptance. Start accepting that you are living a limited existence due to limiting beliefs and realize that anything that has the potential to remove your limitations is the most loving thing there is.
You are love and you are loved.
Joshua
