Dear Joshua
You are correct on the whole Abraham seminars and one person getting picked because the answer will be helpful to everyone. They say that often, and I didn't take it into account with you and Gary, so thank you.
I had difficult morning ( emotionally), which was interesting to observe from a distance. I don't know what triggered my bad mood initially, but then situations came to top it up (for example, my boss said my breakfast peanut butter sandwich smelled (really? Does peanut butter smell?). I was pissed (already from another situation ), but didn't tell him he smells of cigarettes all day, which isn't particularly pleasant either (after all, he's my boss, better to practice restraint of pen and tongue). But what I found interesting was that I just couldn't seem to pull myself out of this mood until at least lunch and other things happened (although none of it was important, it just fed the pissy mood).
I reminded myself that "this too shall pass" or "maybe this is an opportunity to look at a limiting belief" or "I created this" but there was also, while certainly not feeling good, a certain level of either comfortability in the pissy emotion, or satisfaction (so much for the expression "better to be happy than right"), which I became aware of. I was disappointed in myself. Not because I had created the contrast, but because I sat in it for so long.
The afternoon went better and finally the evening was nice (peaceful), I'm wondering if sitting in this emotion for a while was the best feeling I could find in that time frame, probably helped by the LOA bringing similar vibrational thoughts, and that what started to break that trend was the walk outside in the sunshine (but even then, I had a repair guy who was rude). There is probably a bit of a control issue too here. I can't control my boss, and resent having to possibly change my breakfast because it bothers him, and I wouldn't want that....
With Love
Kate
Dear Kate,
Understanding that you're in a bad mood is quite a good thing. At this point you have a choice. Do you work to bring yourself back into alignment by using the tools at your disposal, or do you wallow around in it for a while? That choice is yours, but realize you're making a choice. You can certainly be pissy as long as you like, but the evidence you received today suggests that the pissy mood will get you pissy results. That's fine, tomorrow is another day.
It has been your habit to get into a mood and then ride it out, but you no longer need to do this. You can actually stop and think about the reason you're in the mood in the first place. Maybe you look at the situation from another perspective. Maybe you give yourself a break. Maybe you find a limiting belief and prove to yourself that the irrational fear is false. You might do all these things and still be in a pissy mood, or you might feel empowered that you can consciously bring yourself out of it.
It is vibrationally better to get yourself out of a bad mood as soon as possible, even when you don't feel like it. The universe is responding to your vibration. You receive thoughts that match your mood. The longer you're in it, the more momentum is created. Wallowing around in a bad mood makes it more likely for the bad mood to continue and once you're over it, it makes it more likely to return. Replacing your bad mood with something that feels better creates a vibration that is a little bit higher and clearer. The sooner you consciously work to get yourself out of it, the easier it will be the next time one comes around.
It is quite possible that you got a sense that a pissy mood has its advantages. As a child, maybe your parents comforted you when you were in a bad mood. Maybe you got a little attention. Maybe you received some sympathy. Whatever it was, it stuck with you and now you're not sure if you want to get out of the mood. The mood seems to have advantages. However, the universe doesn't know you're in a mood. All it knows is that you're focusing on something and it will bring you thoughts and other manifestations (rude repairman) that match how you feel.
Staying in a bad mood might feel okay, even comfortable, but it does nothing to move you along your path toward what's wanted. This is the power of focus. When you are focused on what you desire, on being the highest version of you, and on feeling good, you do not spend much time in lower emotional states of being. You understand that it is neither pleasant or helpful and you do your work to get into a good mood as soon as possible.
Joshua
