Dear Joshua,
Today I felt a lot of anxiety around work and I really didn't know what to do with it. At one point I went for a walk (that felt soothing), at one point I just started writing to remind myself that I created this... and that all is well and this is happening for me, not to me. Happening for me... The anxiety comes from ego, from seeing myself as an inadequate performer, and the stress of having to perform, and justify my performance to my bosses (which is probably upcoming). And I create this anxiety. I went for a walk, I wrote to remind myself that this is all for me, not to me... That I'm coming from this with a limited belief. That I'm bigger and more powerful than this. I can write that, but can I know it? Maybe I'm being too impatient....
And then once out of work, in the street, in the subway, I felt appreciation, ease, and even a bit teary... emotions all over the place but quieter now.
I would love to feel to ease more, ease more, especially in work. Ease and Joy - It feels good - even unconditional love feels good (and I was scared of that condition - that it wouldn't really feel like love, but it actually does and it feels good).
The fear: The fear is the ego being hurt? Or that I'm not getting "it" as quickly as I would like? Or that I'm not (yet) the deliberate creator I would like to be.
And I AM feeling more ease. I am I am - so why am I putting my pressure on myself - its tiring ... anyway...
Also, I don't want to sound too negative (focusing on the image ) on anything but this is work I'm doing with you and I don't want to put a smiley face on, because I want to expand here...and I am. Sometimes I think you over estimate me - but then, you know me better than I know me. So I really appreciate your uplifting words, as they give me more confidence, little by little by little .... thank you much, Joshua.
And there was of course Brussels, which might have unconsciously added to my anxiety today. Although I like to think, not...
With Love
Kate
Dear Kate,
Anxiety is strong negative emotion. It is intense, which means there is a strong limiting belief based on a strong fear. Just like the little fears, you must stop and analyze the big fears. It's the same process. So, let's start at the beginning.
There is a perspective which causes the manifestation of negative emotion, i.e. anxiety. Had you been looking at the situation from a higher perspective, the anxiety could not have manifested. Because your perspective was out of alignment with who you really are, your inner self sent you a strong message in the form of negative emotion. It is not we, or your inner self, or all your supporters and guides who overestimate you. We all know who the real you is. It is you, in times like these, who temporarily underestimates yourself.
Most of the time you are moving along quite nicely. You feel good. Then you look at something like that person in the middle of the sidewalk, or your assistants who won't book a train, or your bosses who demand more, or yourself who cannot or will not create more, and you choose a perspective that is based on lack, or inadequacy, or incompetence, or ignorance. All of these perspectives come from being less than who you are. You chose them, which is your right. You have free will and can choose any thought or any perspective you want. However, when you choose a perspective, or even a thought, that is not aligned with who you really are (a powerful being of pure positive love), your going to feel it. You're going to receive negative emotion. The more out of alignment the perspective, the stronger the negative emotion. Anxiety is a strong negative emotion, so it is there to let you know that how you are viewing this situation is based in fear, which is false.
It is not just us who estimate your worth to be absolute. It is the universe. When you feel less than that, you feel negative emotion. You cannot escape negative emotion completely because no matter how far you rise, you'll always encounter some fear and you'll occasionally choose a perspective that does not align with the highest version of you. So never be hard on yourself. This is the never-ending game of expansion you came for. This is why you're here.
There is a reason for the experience of physical pain. Pain alters your behavior so that you are more likely to survive injury and death. It's part of the structure of physical reality and it plays an important role. Negative emotion is nonphysical pain. It does not feel good. It is supposed to hurt. You're supposed to really notice it. Negative emotion alerts you to the fact that you're choosing a perspective which is not beneficial. Just like pain is alerting you to the fact that you are taking an action that is not beneficial, negative emotion does something quite similar.
You create on purpose by adopting a stance where you choose thoughts, beliefs, perspectives, and actions that align with who you really are and what you really want. The universe knows the full you and the sum total of all your desires. It will bring them to you as long as your vibration is aligned with these things. When you chose a thought, belief, perspective, or action that is not aligned with what you want, your inner self alerts you to this fact by inserting a negative emotion. The stronger the emotion, the more limited your thought, belief, perspective, or action is compared with the fullness of your desire.
When you think a thought that is contrary to what you want, you feel slight negative emotion. When that thought is anchored by a belief, you feel stronger negative emotion. When you choose a perspective that creates the illusion that something is wrong, the negative emotion is even more obvious. And when you take action which is opposed to what you want and who you really are, you feel the most severe form of negative emotion. Momentum is created and starts at thought, then belief, then perspective and finally, action. Stop the momentum before it gets started by noticing thoughts that cause minor negative emotion.
This is not so easily accomplished because you are so used to thinking thoughts that are out of alignment with your desires that you barely notice them. As you start to demand to feel better, you'll really notice negative emotion. When you intend to feel good, you'll really notice when you don't. This is a very good thing. It's helpful to be emotional, but it's also important to stop and analyze the fears behind these thoughts. This is how you consciously create what you want.
You are doing very well indeed and we look forward to analyzing your limiting beliefs to root out some irrational fears.
Joshua
