Dear Joshua,
Today, situations were a bit more complicated than yesterday but I didn't feel overly put out - I just needed to take things in stride and remind myself that I can't see the bigger picture on some situations (like not being able to find a return train for a trip I'm supposed to be taking next week on the same day my boyfriend arrives in town to see me). It will all work out - it always does in hindsight... and its life anyway - I get on a theoretical level that contrast is good since it brings clarity - but of course (well, for me anyway) there is a bit of a leap in getting to appreciation for the contrast.
But I'm wondering if the little things that came up today (like not being able to print your answers on my work computer without the whole thing freezing), or this train trip (and worrying about messing clients around - although I started saying to myself that maybe the clients would be relieved if we cancel, it would give them freedom to do other things) has to do with wearing the high heels I put on today. This might sound ridiculous to Gary (lol), but I've moved more and more to flat shoes for work and play, just for comfort reasons, and today I wore high heels and was practically going slower than a snail on my way home. Can something as minor as this create bumps, or do the bumps just happen because I need to be working on beliefs and being more laid back and trusting (and I really think I am, although it is a gentle incremental process - which is good)?
Kate
Dear Kate,
Your shoes are part of the past version of you which was more concerned with who you appeared to others rather than feeling good. Now you are transitioning away from the conventions of man and toward that which feels good. Note how you feel wearing flat shoes as opposed to uncomfortable shoes. In the flat shoes you feel good physically while in the heels you might have felt good because what you thought people were thinking about you. Carry this out a little further. You have allowed yourself to wear flat shoes to work, which feel good, but you probably wouldn't wear sweat pants to work which also feel good. You still want people to think you look good even if it's a bit uncomfortable. There's nothing wrong with this, we just want to point out something we find interesting.
So did the high heels cause a bump in your vibration? Certainly. Did it cause the the missing train or the printer to freeze up? No. These were incidences that are designed to cause you to think about your perception. They are manifestation events. Think about why you felt negative emotion and what the fear was at the basis of the events. This is what we are talking about.
Since both events are relatively minor, you might wave them off and not concern yourself further. This too is acceptable as long as you quickly soothe yourself and get back to feeling good. Think about the train. You quickly thought that everything would work out (and it will) and you felt better. This is good,but if you wanted to go a little deeper, you might think more about what caused the negative emotion. It was fear. Fear that you might miss some time with your boyfriend and even fear that this could possibly cause a break-up. It is this fear of loss that caused the negative emotion. If the fear was not there, you could not feel negative emotion. So the work in this instance is to realize that there is nothing to lose. You cannot lose your boyfriend because you are eternally linked just as you are with everyone you know. If you break up, you will be matched with someone who resonates with your vibration and it will also be someone you are bonded with eternally.
Imagine releasing fear like this many times per day. Every time you feel negative emotion, you have some unresolved fear picking away at you. Without the fear, no negative emotion, only love. Of course new fears will come as you grow, but these little meaningless fears will come far and few between.
You are doing a wonderful job at feeling ease, soothing yourself by thinking comforting thoughts, and having trust that the universe has your back. Now you might try digging out the fear at the bottom of these events that bring up negative emotion. This is the work that will cause the greatest shift in your experience of life.
Joshua
