Dear Joshua - my friends, teachers and confidant,
Thanks you for all of the conversations and letters. I feel like I'm in the kitchen ready to cook. I've read the recipes, I've watched the dish being made, and now I have all the ingredients in front of me read to cook, and I'm trying to reduce my fears. I'm boosting up my desire, reminding myself nothing is wrong, but here I am confessing to my friends who love me, my fears.
I can understand the conceptual idea of worthiness. I do have a strong belief that no one is better than me and I am no better than anyone. They might have a different skill set but we are all equal. Yet yesterday on the live call, when I joked about cleaning, do I not feel worthy of having someone clean my house? Do I have fear that the universe will not provide? Do I have fear on the lack of money? I'm working on it and understand that this is an abundant universe and to reduce the intensity of limiting beliefs. I am working on my fears about money. Again I understand that money is energy and it needs to flow. So I tell myself there is just the momentum of the old approach. And I struggle between not forcing it, by go getting it, and trying to be allowing and receiving. As you have taught this is a receiving universe.
Madeline Zimmerman, also known as Schoochie Woochie, my daughter, asks every day for a lot of items to buy and money. I am sure I'm not the first parent out there that feels like an ATM. It brings up fears, like I won't have enough. Then I analyze and try to be easy and allowing. I tell her that the flow of money has to catch up with her wants. There is an abundance. It is not a matter of this or that it can be this and that. We can have both. I can allow my daughter to her her lotus necklace, new shoes, pants, shorts, etc the item of the day... and have a house cleaner, and go on vacation and... then another fear pops up...
Maybe I shouldn't want material things. I know this is an illusion. Materialistic items can't bring me happiness and it is only the feeling that is important. So I say to myself I can have a remodeled house, go ahead an buy those lamps silly, I can experience these things. I can birth desires that are materialistic but I am still feeling fear. I am worthy darn it!
I think I need you in the kitchen with me. I feel that you are with whole bunch of others, but I'm still feeling wobbly. Will you cook with me?
Your friend,
Isabelle
Dear Isabelle,
Why not want material things? You are experiencing material reality after all. If it's not a physical thing, then it's a nonphysical thing and you can have all the nonphysical things you can dream of when you return to the nonphysical realm. In the physical world, it's fun to manifest physical things. You are here to practice your powers of creation and you do that by manifesting physical feelings and experiences.
It's one thing to want something because the having of it would be fun and another thing entirely to want a physical thing so that you could feel something that you think is missing. Schoochie Woochie wants things because she knows it would be fun to have them. She expects you to buy her these things. It is weird for you not to. Why would you not? That makes no sense in the abundant reality she believes in. From her perspective, things she wants just come to her unless you say no. All she has to do is get you to say yes. It works like that for you as well. All you have to do is say yes. You keep saying no and that makes us and Schoochie Woochie wonder why?
You have been taught to believe in lack rather than abundance. You have been told that money doesn't grow on trees when in fact, money is made of trees (some of it anyway). Actually, as you are well aware, money is just an idea or agreement between people. It really isn't anything other than nonphysical energy. It's useful at times and at other times (like most of the time) it has no use at all. It has no use while you are sleeping, or reading, or cooking, or mowing the lawn. You only use money for a few moments a day and the rest of the time it's not needed at all. You are just thinking about it all the time and this causes you to focus on a very false idea that you lack money. You are one of the most wealthy people in the world. If you were to compare yourself to the less wealthy 95-99% of the world's population, you would feel abundantly abundant.
Take your mind off abundance and put it on worthiness. You are absolutely worthy to experience anything you can imagine while living here in physical reality. No one is more worthy than you. If someone is experiencing greater levels of abundance, they are simply feeling more abundant in those specific areas. Maybe they are following a passion and the side effect of that is money. Who knows? Whatever it is, they are nonresistant about the money. They allow it to come.
Gary wanted abundance and so he attracted the idea to buy Bitcoin at $200 each. He then attracted the idea to buy Ethereum at $12. In the past, he would not have considered this and would have dismissed the inspiration as just another crazy thought. However, he felt inspired to research it and this caused him to become excited and this led him to opening an account and buying lots of Bitcoin and Ether at the perfect time.
You do not have to figure out how the abundance will come, you must have faith that it will come and when you are inspired to do something, you must push past the fear and investigate it. Ideas are being sent to you all the time. You are calling them wrong because your perspective is limited and you don't trust these inspired ideas and thoughts just yet. Soon you will come to understand the idea of vibrational alignment and the reception of thoughts and ideas that are being sent to you so that you can receive all that you desire. It's not so much a matter of feeling worthy, it's about trusting that the universe is bringing you everything you want. You're just so used to saying no when you could be saying yes.
With our love,
We are Joshua
