Dear Joshua,
I haven't written for a while and miss the writing but more missing the answers! Thank you so much for all you've shared with me.
I'm still struggling with something I've asked about many times before. And I can recite the answers, so why do I keep having the same manifestation events, over and over. We create our own reality. What shows up is a reflection of what we are vibrating. I'm thinking I feel pretty good about myself ... and then BAMM. Rick pulls out all the punches with 'teasing' that is very ... I can't think of the word. I get so mad and defensive. And, in the back of my mind I'm questioning - why is this comment coming to me... I can't believe I'm hearing this and feeling this negative emotion so strongly, AGAIN.
I set my intentions. I quiet my mind. I listen to Joshua meditations of joy and passion and feeling good. I think I feel good. I can feel myself allowing myself more ease, less doing - but man-oh-man - how many times do I have to take this kind of event? I try to say to myself in the moment... laugh, let it go and sometimes that works but other times I've felt such physical rage like never before - am I mad at myself and I don't know it? Any direction would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks, again!
Allyson
Dear Allyson,
We love sharing our perspective with you and we don't mind sharing it over and over again because you help us come up with new ways of sharing that perspective. You are a worthy being. You are absolutely worthy. That means you do not have to do anything to prove your worthiness. You are as worthy, but no more worthy, than all other life. You are worthy, but you think you are not worthy.
If you believed you were worthy, Rick would not tease you because he is simply a mirror to how you feel about yourself. If he did tease you, you could not comprehend it as teasing, you would think he was acting strange or trying to be funny. You could not feel negative emotion, because it would not register as a tease. Therefore, you, like most humans, have only one job; understand that you are worthy of love.
Who would you be if you believed you were worthy of love? You would be who you really are; a limitless being of pure positive love and acceptance. That's who you are and so you would love and accept all others for how they are being without judgment. If Rick teased you, you would not get upset, you would thank him for pointing out a wobble in your vibration. Let's say this plainly. Your feelings of unworthiness are keeping you from discovering that which you came here to explore. They are limiting and untrue. When you move past this issue, everything you have always wanted will come streaming into your life. That includes love, abundance, fulfillment, joy, and passion. However, none of that is really important because you, like most humans, first want to discover your own worthiness and this will be your greatest accomplishment.
We will also say that you set this all up prior to your birth. You are a master creator. You came to this reality as a master and you set up this challenge by being born in your family at the time you chose to come here. You knew that the conditions of your youth would saddle you with great insecurity and self doubt and that you would have to overcome these limiting beliefs at some point. All of those in your life, including Rick, are simply reflection of how you feel about yourself. You feel worthy and they will treat you as a worthy being. You feel unworthy and to the degree of your unworthy feelings, they will treat you exactly how you feel about yourself.
It's not a matter of meditating, setting intentions, or staying in the moment. It is all about processing your fears. You fear that unless you are good, you will not be loved. So you try to be good and you get teased. This brings up the fear that your behavior is not working. The fear is irrational and false. You are worthy of love and you do not have to be different than you are. All you have to do is turn around and love those around you regardless of how they perceive you. You can demand to be treated well. That is perfectly within your rights. However, those around you will always be inspired to treat you in accordance with how you really feel about yourself. That is inspiration coming from the nonphysical and it's difficult to resist. It is always for your direct benefit. You can't change them. All you can do is change how you feel about yourself. Feel worthy rather than scared and everything will turn around.
Feel worthy because you are worthy and your reality will always, always reflect how you feel. If you can do that, you will unlock the key to living in the new approach to life.
With our love,
We are Joshua
